Healing From Divine Feminine Isolation and Self-Hatred Syndrome

Healing From Divine Feminine Isolation and Self-Hatred Syndrome

A spiritual woman entrepreneur is only as happy, rich, and successful as how much she loves herself, and how willing she is to receive love and abundance from her beloved friends, clients, and soul family.

Most of us High-Healed Priestesses have been conditioned to hide who we really are, to believe that we are worthless or bad, and to isolate ourselves from other powerful women. Yet we cannot continue living in hiding and shame, for it’s our time to break-free to be successful 6-figure earners who are healing and shifting the planet for good.  You will gain from reading this blog if you experience/feel any of the following:

  • Do you want to attract more female friends and even high-paying female clients into your world and to your BLI$$ness?
  • Have you had a hard time finding and creating healthy relationships with other High-Healed Priestesses like yourself (HHPs)?
  • Do you have an unfulfilled deep desire to reuniting with your Divine Feminine soul family?
  • Have you been hitting up against social isolation, loneliness, depression, female competition, and feeling like you don’t belong (maybe on this planet!) socially?

As a High-Healed Priestess (or spiritual woman), you were programed to believe that there was something wrong with you.  It’s a common belief system that my friend’s ex just underlined here in his verbally abusive email (sending him golden light healing!):

“If you dropped the ‘I am a goddess facade’ and people actually saw the real you I very much doubt that you would have many friends at all…apart from a few other random dysfunctional beings.”

healing depression in womenYuck!!! Ouch…Reading his words hit something in me.  Like I wanted to strangle this guy for talking smack to my friend, but at the same time I knew he was just reading something in her and my sub-consicious mind (after all I would be one of the dysfunctional beings he was talking about!).

He was illuminating a painful piece that has been haunting the Divine Feminine for thousands of years. The High Priestess presence on this earth has been submerged because of this, so we absolutely must look at the wound and start to heal it. Thanks Anthony for your illumination!

And ain’t it funny!? We goddesses can believe deep in our subconscious that we are fake, bad, unlovable, ugly beings!  That we don’t deserve loving relationships and are disgusting, despite the fact that we are love portals and angel-like mortals here to illuminate and love Gaia.

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Let’s burn this old false patriarchal belief system that women are somehow filthy, disgusting, and not good enough.  Time to let it go!


For the love of Goddess, can we stop believing this malarkey already!? It has created all kinds of weird and funky symptoms in our psychologies and BLI$$nesses, including:
  1. Eating disorders, binge eating, sugar addiction
  2. Body image issues and sexual shame
  3. Self-hatred
  4. Self-confidence issues
  5. Lack of permission to be self-empowered
  6. Financial self-sabotage, poverty issues, literally “poor self-esteem
  7. Not feeling smart enough (i.e. to run a business)
  8. Feeling hopeless about having deep friendships
  9. Intimacy fears, isolation, thinking people don’t like you
  10. Feeling not good enough with your clients, inability to attract clients
  11. Rejection and abandonment fears with men and women
  12. Perfectionism syndrome, which easily can sabotage your BLI$$ness financially and bliss-wise

I know I have fallen for the oldest trick in the book. It’s fu%ed me over majorly in the past. But I am moving on!

I know I have struggled with this – despite the fact that my heart is so full of love and desire for connection – I have many times found myself alone, isolated, and hurt by myself and others for no apparent reason, over and over.  And I am like “What’s wrong with me? Why don’t people love me!? Why does it seem like everyone has so many friends and I am a freak!?”  It’s not a pretty picture. So un-HHP!
I have worked very hard to heal this BS and thank Goddess it’s healing quickly! I am learning that it’s OK to be a High-Healed Priestess and that we HHPs are needed on the planet. I have attracted very deep female connections and my soulmate clients have come through because I am loving my Feminine. My relationship to men is also improving, and I have so much more to offer men!

New friends, old soul family sisterhood! Or sistarhood!

New friends, old soul family sisterhood! Or sistarhood!

It took me a long time to heal my wounds with women, and it's an everyday process.

We all must heal this wound and FAST so we can be in service and have a great time with our soul sistas.

Let’s erase the code that it’s not OK to be a goddess or god, that you’ll be alone if you come out of your goddess closet. You CAN let your Light shine and speak the truth. It is real Divine energy, and you are Divinely lovable! Let’s heal our inner children who felt rejected and abandoned because we were bright, shiny, happy, and magical, and the world wasn’t yet ready for this. The world needs our love, magic, and sister-bonds NOW!

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Your love-power heals the planet. Don’t let the illusion of rejection stop you; be the unconditional love you have been waiting for. You will attract your soul family and tribe; it is your birthright.

We can rebuild the Goddess Temple only when we forgive ourselves for being such powerful BIG Goddesses of Love!

Sending you Light and love and asking for you to show up in your Light Power even if you fear that it will blind others or scare them off… Because it won’t! No it won’t!
Loving you….
dr amanda noelle

High Priestess SchoolDr Amanda Noelle

Healing From Divine Feminine Isolation and Self-Hatred Syndrome

What Are Soulmate Clients and How Are They Different From Other Clients?

In my past ten years of being a spiritual BLI$$ness owner, I have found that there are two types of clients you can attract. There are the ho-hum clients who come in with an unconscious, random, or even fear-based energy, and these guys may pay the bills. However, they come with a handful of karma and maybe even some drama, and they don’t feed your heart to the deepest level.

Then, there a whole other class of clients who come through a pure divine alignment. Soulmate Clients is the term I’ve coined to describe them, and this is the breed of clients I am going to speak about today to help you attract your 6-figure BLI$$ in ease, passion, and fun, so you can make a huge difference on the planet!

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Soulmate Clients help each other stand tall.

How I Discovered Soulmate Clients

When I was in my 20s, I had a poverty consciousness that limited me to a sad little 4-figure salary. It was a curse, and it brought me to shame and pain (which now motivates me to teach other women how to create their 6-figure BLI$$nesses too).

Though I was stuck and poor, I still had a magical fairy way of attracting my Soulmate Clients just when I absolutely needed them, like when the rent was due or when I needed to afford taking a spiritual class or going to Dance Camp! Luckily, I could always manifest money and clients like a fairy, even when I was mostly blocked in the lower-chakras.

Bit by bit, I have discovered the concept of Soulmate Client attraction by trial and error, and realized that when I operate my Law of Attraction magic from my soul’s desires, awesome abundant and easy clients come through. When I operate from fear and having to manifest clients out of obligation, it becomes lame and headachy, and I work harder for less money per hour.

soulmate client attractionOne of my very first Soulmate Clients, Mary, came into my life when I was only working 1-3 half days per week as a licensed esthetician at my tiny little organic skin spa in Oakland, CA. At the time, I had just paid off my startup fees, and I was gaining some confidence as a metaphysical healer. I was in psychic school and had learned about the Law of Attraction. I was really excited to call in my fun spiritual soul-aligned clients whom I could test out my metaphysical magic on.

Mary had come to me like clockwork after doing a manifestation-prayer and visualization. I met her via Sarah, my acupuncturist, who had enjoyed a few of my facials. During Mary’s first facial, I felt an immediate soul connection and sense of familiarity. Even though I was afraid that she’d think I was crazy, I was immediately guided to ask her if it was OK to give her an aura healing while her face mask was on. Instead of being shocked, it turned out that Mary said that she’d love an aura healing and that she had gone to the same psychic school I was attending, and had studied with with the same teacher named Javier! Not what I was expecting from a overachiever in biotech. And what a small world! The aura healing felt amazing for both of us, and I could feel Mary’s energy moving and healing quickly. I was gleeful when she bought a bunch of products and immediately rebooked her next facial.

Over time, Mary and I connected deeply and felt that we had had shared past lives together. She was like a richer, wiser, and older version of me in a lot of ways; Mary taught me so much. We had a blast together doing her monthly sessions, and I almost forgot to charge her at the end of each facial. She’d tip me amazingly and sometimes even paid me an even $444 just for fun. Mary loved my healing energy, and we alchemically healed her rosacea and improved her severe skin sensitivities. We even discovered the root of her skin problems which cropped up when she’d left her first husband ten years prior. Her husband even noticed how her skin glowed and energy bubbled after our work together, and was curious to meet me! Mary was definitely my Soulmate Client, and made me understand the difference between a Soulmate Client and just another average karmic transaction.

soulmate clientsWhat are Soulmate Clients, exactly?

Soulmate Clients are a type of ‘business soulmate’ who are connected to you on a deep soul level, in which there is a sacred soul-contract governing the energy exchange. There is a monetary exchange based on Divine Love, respect, of mutual healing and learning.

Soulmate Clients are members of your soul-family/soul-pod/soul-cluster, aka a group of souls that reincarnate during a certain timeline with a specific soul mission. They have a similar soul vibration often times will feel instantly familiar similar to ‘love at first sight.’ Working with Soulmate Clients is energizing, activating, and helps us remember who we are in the Higher Dimensions. Further, by creating monetary exchange with our Soulmate Clients, we are expressing a sacred currency of Divine Love through what I call Holy MatriMoney. The healing exchange of currency is healing to both the customer/client and business owner, and is healing to money itself (which in a sense has a Higher Self or consciousness just like everything else).

Why is it useful to attract your Soulmate Clients?

There are a multitude of reasons why it’s so much better and more blissful to attract your Soulmate Clients. I’ll mention my faves here:

  1. You love your clients, deeply, with Divine Love!
  2. They love you back.
  3. You uplift each other.
  4. You have a soul contract blessed by the angels through the Higher Dimensions
  5. You are honoring both of your souls by creating a work-contract or financial energy-exchange.
  6. The monetary exchange blesses both of your bank accounts, perhaps 10, 20, or 1,000-fold!
  7. You instantly feel a deep sense of purpose, connection, and soul-recognition together.
  8. You have an amazing telepathic connection with your soul family, so even if you have a hard time explaining your work to people, your Soul Family will receive it. In essence, they ‘get’ your niche and brand.
  9. Other people won’t understand them as easily as you do. This brings them immense satisfaction and value and saves you both time.
  10. It’s easier to heal your Soulmate Clients because you share similar stories and healing frequencies, so when you work as their healer, they access their answers and heal faster.
  11. They like the vibe in which you do things, it uplifts them just being in your field.
  12. They find you charming, funny, calming, interesting, and attractive (it’s all relative! Soul-relatives!).
  13. The networking opportunities are much better because you’ll be networking with their extended soul families and vice versa.

soulmate clientsMy retreats, events, and projects are big old soul family reunions. The retreat I am hosting in Bali in February is energetically incestuous – each person in the group had already known or heard of or friended at least one other person in the group beforehand via connecting on the internet (they’re from various places in the US and Canada)! Similarly, my online Divine Feminine-based university Aphrodite University is basically a High Priestess reunion stomping ground of beings from Egypt, Atlantis, Lemuria, Greece, Italy, the Pleiades, and the Higher Dimensions.

I quite commonly dream of Soulmate Clients a day or so before they walk through the door. This makes my life seem a little more exciting, magical, and aligned. When money gets swiped from a client’s sacred credit card into my bank account, I bless it with Soul Family Love and ask for the investment to be returned to her ten-fold or more. I can feel how her investment heals both of us energetically and financially.

how do i find my soulmate clientsHonestly, if I hadn’t followed my heart and started to ask the Universe for my Soulmate Clients when I launched my healing business 2 years ago, I don’t doubt that I would still be stuck with a 4-figure income block. Trust me, hitting 6-figures and sharing the love with your Soulmate Clients is so much more fun, easy, and BLI$$ful, and they are out there waiting for you!

What are you waiting for grrl, go get ’em…

All my love to you,

Dr Amanda Noelle



Dr. Amanda Noelle is the Founder of Aphrodite University, helping healers become High-Healed Priestesses who rock 6-figure BLI$$nesses while changing the world.

I Lost My Job and Opened My Online Business Instead, Thank God!

I Lost My Job and Opened My Online Business Instead, Thank God!

Almost two years ago, I suffered from a neck injury that forced me to suddenly quit my safe job and end my 5-year journey as a licensed esthetician. I was so comfy washing faces, prescribing skin cream, and doing advanced peels for a comfortable income in a dark hidden room. I was good at this work, yet it wasn’t my true passion, nor did it challenge me. I had a liberal arts degree from an Ivy League caliber school, a life coaching certification, and a PhD in transpersonal counseling, yet I had no idea how I’d use these and make money as an alternative healer. So I was stuck working at a posh spa in Marin, California even though I hated it, because the money was good, I got health insurance, and I was “safe” in my little hell.

Then, one day at work, a sharp pain shot through my left shoulder for no apparent reason; by the end of the day, I could hardly move. I had to call in sick for the next month, as I couldn’t stand for more than a minute at a time without the pain becoming severe. At that point I’d just become a part-time employee (so I could build my own business), so I didn’t qualify for disability or unemployment. So I was out of commission, and I wasn’t going to be earning anymore commission any time soon! Basically, I was up sh*t creek.

I think my deep dissatisfaction with my work is what made my body fall apart; my job was literally a pain in the neck.

Yet deep down, I knew it was a sign that it was time to quit my “safe job,” so I listened to my body and quit. My boss pretended to feel sorry for me, but I could tell that he was mainly bummed that I was no longer a financial asset to him. It saddened me that I was a disposable commodity, but it confirmed my decision to take off.

I was trapped in my safe spa job and felt hopeless

I was trapped in my safe spa job and felt hopeless

I was both excited to be done with esthetician work forever.  Yet I was forced to move forward in my career next steps, and it freaked me out… How do I make money as a coach!? How will I live off my own salary? Ouchh, my neck really hurt.  I tried not to panic, and tuned into my best vice when I get stuck: prayer.

I meditated and prayed daily. Lying on my back on my couch, there was not much else to do but pray, clarify my business goals, and to start my online marketing launch.

Belly up from that big cozy white couch, I launched my first successful coaching business, Aphrodite’s Apprentice, helping spiritual women attract their Twin Flame. It was a dream I’d had for several years, but finally, I went for it. For I had no other choice!

Me in my office with a view in Crete, Greece

Me in my office with a view in Crete, Greece

Getting a neck injury was the best thing I could have done for myself; it forced me to jump through the fire that I’d been afraid of and avoiding for years.  Through the birth pains, and I created a thriving boutique coaching business; I saw clients from over 30 countries in the world via Skype or phone, and enjoyed it more than ever!

The neck pain subsided immediately after I realized that I was never going to have to go back to the spa again – a job that I’d been feeling stuck at for several years.  Knowing that I was forever going to be self-employed, set my own hours, and never have to listen to another boss telling me what to do uplifted me and inspired my healing. When I sent an email to my ex-boss again thanking him and sharing with him my new business success – to no surprise – I never heard back from him.

I don’t recommend blindingly jumping.  Always make a solid plan to transition from your day job. I actually had one for, but was scared to implement it. So I had gone back to my spa job part-time and procrastinated on launching my biz for about 6 more months. I had made enough money in my spa job to ease into my BLI$$ness over a two year period living really cheaply. The injury was the last push.

Thanks to my neck, my own courage, and to many divine blessing, it took way less than 6-months to succeed in my BLI$$ness. Within the first month, I’d already made $3,000 to my great surprise.

I am grateful I had that cushion of ca$h so I could attract clients in divine timing, rather than in rushed desperation. Desperation scares clients away; I highly recommend all BLI$$ness women start off having a cash-cushion or steady day-job as their BLI$$ness builds.

Now I run my BLI$$ness from all over the world

Now I run my BLI$$ness from all over the world

While I don’t recommend manifesting a neck injury to cut those golden handcuffs, I do suggest stepping through the fire and launching that soul-inspired business/BLI$$ness sooner than later! For me, I think it took a desperate situation to get me to push past my fear. I hope it doesn’t take this much for you.

What I can say is that I have absolutely no regrets on leaving that fear-based J-O-B, don’t miss the work in the slightest (I thought I might), and I have made more money in way less time being self-employed. I also love and adore my “soulmate clients” as I call my clients, and I love the freedom, creativity, and flexibility I have as a BLI$$preneur.

I now get to live between Europe, Asia, and the US coaching, writing, teaching, and running my BLI$$ness, and it’s truly a dream come true.  I so wish you the same BLI$$ings and BLE$$ings to come true and know that each and every one of you have what it takes and that your angels are guiding you.

Why High Heels Boost a Woman’s Confidence

Why High Heels Boost a Woman’s Confidence

As a female entrepreneur and High-Healed Priestess, I teach women how to bliss out, let their hair down, and feel sexy in their businesses while making 6-figures, what I call doing BLI$$ness (business + bliss + big buck$).

People are asking me, “Amanda, what is the deal with the heels?”  So I thought to answer that question in this blog, and also to explain what high heels do for me as a BLI$$ness owner and HHP (High-Healed Priestess).  I have also included a few shots from a recent photo shoot in Florence, Italy to show the transformation that heels can impart.

Before: lacking confidence, shorter, shriveled sense of self-worth, average looking woman.

Before: lacking confidence, shorter, shriveled sense of self-worth, average-looking woman.

Every inch of hard material under a woman’s heels gives her an inch of extra confidence… It’s kinda like inches on a man’s body – (within reason) the longer the better. In fact, women began wearing high heels to be tall like men. Click here for the history of high heels and their invention in Europe. So we walk around on little pedestals to show off that we’re women of leisure, and that we deserve as much respect and power as men do. A woman’s confidence can fluctuate as quickly as her mood and her hormone cycle.  A good pair of heels can help correct a confidence level on a day when it’s, well, tipsy…

Every woman secretly wants to be put on a pedestal. Heels provide a platform for self-confidence.

Is this ridiculous? Certainly.  Should we question it? Most definitely. There are High-Healed Priestessmany reasons not to don heels. Bad backs. Not being able to run away from a rapist when traipsing around shady parts of the downtown at night in your mini dress like your mother taught you not to do (though these heels could definitely come in handy and I bet I could kill someone if I used their sharp point as a weapon as I’ve seen in movies!). Not to mention twisted ankles and monster bunions… All good reasons not to wear heels, right?

Yet I am a HHP and I am not practical all of the time – we priestesses simply cannot resist peculiar customs that make us feel like goddesses, no matter how ridiculous they may be!  We can’t let our lady feet lag around in flats all the time…But with bunions, potential back problems, and the risk of toppling over, are high heels worth it, and are they anti-feminist?

Come on lil' caterpillar...

Come on lil’ caterpillar…

Honestly, I think that wearing heels on a daily basis would be plain dumb. Do I walk around in high heels often? Nope. I’m actually more frequently caught laying around in them on soft surfaces, nibbling things and doing naughty things…They’re much more comfortable that way.  I’m also seen with heels at live business events, but most of the time I am either barefoot or wearing a pear of studded Jimmy Choo/Uggs or sexy slippers with the heels parked nearby.  I value my own comfort and safety more than I value looks (except when I am on camera since those images last forever).

Heels are healing. Like acupuncture: pain now, but good energy for life!

BAM! Heels are healing. Like acupuncture: pain now, but good energy for life! I feel like I can butter-FLY in ‘dese!

Is it unfeminist to wear heels? Wah wah! I find that it feels divinely feminine to strut around in heels, actually (just not longer than is painful). Sometimes I get turned on just wearing them around the house, even while Skyping from my virtual office with my clients who have no idea what I’m wearing down yonder. It’s like wearing sexy lingerie to a board meeting: you’re the only one who knows about your secret weapon. Board meetings, that seems so 80s to me as a BLI$$preneur!

The answer to the above question is: Do I care about being feminist anymore? Should we care? Where did that get us? …to be angry man haters? …acting just like men? OK, it got us to some awesome places, but now it’s time to break the rules again and just do as we please and also think about what intuitively feels right.

I love doing BLI$$ness in the most feminine, pleasurable way possible. In fact, I am so stubborn and also scared $h*tless of things that aren’t blissful and easy, that I tend to not get anything done at all unless it’s done in a High-Healed Priestess playful and sexy manner.  It’s how I’ve had my success and how I teach my tribe of HHPs to build their 6-figure BLI$$nesses, too.

Just be you. As weird as you may be!

That’s the secret to dressing for success and succsexiness.  If you feel better wearing combat boots, by all means do that. I grew up in hippie feminist Berkeley where most moms didn’t wear makeup and all I wanted to do was play with Barbies and dose up on the eyeshadow already.  Call me repressed, but this girl wants to be a little girly sometimes, especially when it comes to stepping on the stage…

And isn’t that what we’re doing as BLI$$ness women? Stepping up on the stage, where others can see us, hear our unique messages, and learn from what we have to speak?  Heels represent that, the little pedestals we walk on. God bless you if you don’t need heels or hair or makeup to feel confident as a woman on stage.  Or if you have flawless skin that doesn’t need concealer, or long legs that don’t need that little boost (and boost of your caboose, which heels do so nicely may I say!).

After: healed, whole, happy in heels hottie with confidence!

After: healed, whole, happy in heels hottie with confidence!

I say this: do whatever turns YOU on, and your clients will come.  Waiting around to do what’s right or what you “should” do will attract no one or just people who are as repressed and boring as you are being, which is going to burn you out fast in your BLI$$ness.

I love working with fun, funky, sexy, freed women who have been waiting to stomp around not caring what other people think.  The magic is when you do that and people still actually want to pay you for your bliss!

“The fact is, sometimes it’s hard to walk in a single women’s shoes. That’s why we need really special ones now and then – to make the walk a little more fun.”

 Carrie Bradshaw, Sex & The City

The moral of the story: high heels make you look hot. You might sprain an ankle, but heels look great with Ace bandages!

The moral of the story:  high heels make you look hot. You might sprain an ankle, but even Ace bandages look great with heels! Careful walking down those uneven stone staircases!


Come on ladies, just put on whatever the f%&k makes you feel like the sexy BLI$$ness bombshell you are and embrace all those A$$ets and come on and do a little dance with me. I’ve kicked my heels off already, since I like to breakdance and belly dance at the same time and it’s too hard to do in heels. Girl, I love you! Now let’s go have some fun.

“You put high heels on and you change.”

– Manolo Blahnik

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Top three tips to wearing high heels like a HHP:

1)Bring a change of flats, here’s a great portable option- foldable shoes with a wrist pouch by Dr. Scholl’s ($12.99) available at most drug stores.

2) Don’t wear really high heels for more than a your feet enjoy, a few minutes at a time perhaps – life is too short to be in pain! Never dance in heels since no one will be looking at your feet anyway, and you won’t fully enjoy the experience.

3) Take as many photos earlier in the evening after you make your grand high-healed entrance. You’ll be forever remembered for those adorable fuck-me-shoes that everyone will see on Facebook for years to come. On top of this, your makeup and hair will be fresh at the beginning of the evening anyways. You’ll pull a Mr. Rogers and switch to the flats. You’ll stay grounded and balanced instead of tipsy (unless you have that new pink cosmo drink). Most people think it’s adorable that you have your little back-ups. Ladies will constantly be asking you where to buy a pair!

Futuristic Fuck-Me’s

Looking into the future with high heels, I see inventions that work with the ever changing foot-fetish needs of the High-Healed Priestess. I pray for the day when someone invents an adjustable high heel so that you can walk comfortably, then click a button at the back of the shoe to elevate yourself 2-5 inches, depending on the height of your date or how much confidence you’re needing that day.  Let’s see if I can patent that before some designer nerd gets to it, I’m sure I’ll make a fortune!

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