A Dark Night of the Soul is one of the most intensive and challenging awakening experiences one could ask for.
The experience of a Dark Night feels like a death that will never end, and may be considered just as significant and difficult as going through a death–for though the body does not die, a part of the soul is indeed dying.
Though harrowing, the Dark Night is an opportunity for accelerated learning and growth at the soul level.
I have noticed these very specific 5 symptoms in nearly single soul I have seen go through this harrowing experience, including in all of my clients, fans, and in myself…
I’ll list the 5 symptoms here for your convenience, so you can follow along as you watch the video,
5 Symptoms of a Twin Flame Dark Night of the Soul
You feel like you’re gonna die… But worse.
It feels like you’re trapped, and there’s no getting out.
You are obsessed – there’s a sense of urgency, anxiety, like your whole life is going to be ruined, forever.
You might have childhood memories coming up, in dreams, latent memories, or manifesting experiences similar to childhood traumas.
There’s a feeling of pain or trauma in your nervous system. You may be hit by panic attacks, depression, and hopelessness, even if you don’t have a history of it.
The experience, as with any type of Dark Night of the Soul,feels like a death, a very painful loss of (a) a real part of your own soul, or annihilation of the ego, and (b) it feels like the ultimate grievance of a soulmate.
A Twin Flame Dark Night of the Soul is one of the most painful types of losses, and it can last varying amounts of time, and can take some years to recover from the loss.
The experience of losing a Karmic Soulmate, a Twin Flame Counterfeit, or Twin Flame Runner can feel more painful than losing a loved one. For it’s as if they have died and will never come back, but they are right there, maybe even living near you or on social media, and it’s a reminder that your bond has been broken!
If you are going through a Twin Flame Dark Night of the Soul, you will feel it and know it. I commend you for the courage–your soul has chosen to take this path and it is not easy. Yet with the right support, healing energy, and the proper next steps, your soul may be about to flourish in ways it never has before in any of its incarnations!
It means that you are ready to take a big leap into a new paradigm where you are operating on all cylinders, on all of your 11 Twin Flame Chakras, where you are ready to attract true Twin Flame Love.
However, I know that the journey can seem like a steep uphill climb, which is why I recommend not going through it alone, and not ignoring the process.
That’s why I am gathering a tribe of Twin Flames for a 3 day retreat in sunny San Diego, California, where my Beloved and I will not only share some of our best Twin Flame Attraction tips and exercises, we’ll be creating a thriving sisterhood of support.
Have you ever gone through, or are you going through a Dark Night of the Soul? Please share in the comments below what your symptoms were/are, and what you has helped you get through it.
Dr. Amanda Noelle is a Twin Flame Matchmaker, helping smart conscious women call in their ultimate soulmate in 6 months or less.
Some of you have asked, the question, “What if my Twin Flame is married?”
This can be a touchy topic that can bring up a fair amount of inner (and possibly outer!) turmoil.
While I have never been caught in this frustrating scenario myself, hundreds of my Twin Flame fans and clients have told me that they think they know who their Twin Flame is, and yet he/she’s already married to someone else.
I can relate though…Just a few years back, I myself was constantly getting attached to men who were emotionally unavailable, married to their work, or who were committed to other women or playing the field. There wasn’t enough room for me, and it was frustrating! I was longing for the depth of the Twin Flame Union, but something always blocked me…
Additionally, as a Twin Flame Matchmaker, I’ve seen many Twin Flame seekers commit on a soul level to someone who is not committed to them 100%, so they then miss out on the chance to meet someone who is available.
The worse thing that happens–an unfortunately this is very common–is that sometimes the person waits on their potential Twin Flame for years, only to find out it was not their true Twin Flame!
On the other hand, maybe the person you’re in love with is your true Twin… It’s a tricky situation when you experience a deep knowing that someone is your Beloved, and yet you haven’t mastered the alignment of creating a fully committed and healthy Twin Flame Union.
If you are attracted to a potential Twin Flame, and you have already identified the Twin Flame Signs with this person, you are probably assuming that this person is your Twin Flame.
But what happens if you find out later that this person wasn’t a Twin Flame? What if they were a Twin Flame Counterfeit, aka False Twin Flame–wouldn’t you want to have known this from the start?
If you’re feeling a deep connection to someone who you believe to be your Twin Flame, watch my video, “What if my Twin Flame is married?“ to help you handle this harrowing situation.
Watch this video to:
Learn why you’ve manifested this difficult type of soul contract, and what you can do about it
Find out how to handle this frustrating scenario in a positive, healing way
Discover the #1 question you should be asking yourself that you’re probably not
So what do you do if you’ve gotten Twin Flame entangled with someone who is married and not planning to leave? Just watch this video, “What if my Twin Flame is married?” to find out here:
What If My Twin Flame Is Married?
Sometimes these situations can be long and drawn out, and very painful. Do not judge, blame, or shame yourself. Instead, look at the patterns coming up and get the support it takes to heal them. A Twin Flame Union takes work, support, and often an outside witness to support your growth. If you have been stuck and spinning your wheels waiting for Twin Flame Love, you may be stuck.
Don’t waste any more precious time, as you deserve Twin Flame Love! Support is here for you and you don’t have to wait any longer!!!
In our Twin Flame Attraction Programs, my Beloved Jack and I help resolve these issues out quickly so Beloveds can themselves of old Twin Flame Love Blocks.
If you are thinking “My Twin Flame is already married,” take a deep breath–the love is always within you and cannot be separated from you.
The path of the Twin Flame is not an easy one, and there are many ‘tests’ that appear in various lifetimes. You must stay strong, clear out love addictions, and call in the healing support you’re here to receive, which always starts and ends within you.
Your false Twin Flame is a actually gift. While I know that a Twin Flame Counterfeit (as I call it) can bring up some of your biggest $h%t, he or she can also catalyze some of your biggest SHIFTS.
Your Twin Flame Counterfeit is a mere reflection of you. Or more accurately, he or she is a mirror reflection of you–helping you mirror those tricky blindspots so you can see where you must absolutely love yourself.
There are no mistakes within the Twin Flame Mirror, the mirror of love that reflects back to you how close you are to deep self-love.
I have helped hundreds of my clients to call in their Twin Flames, and almost every single one of them has gone through some sort of a harrowing situation with a false Twin Flame. It almost seems like a Twin Flame Attraction initiation rite!
Your Twin Flame is simply a mirror of your own self-love. So you may want to ask yourself, why did I attract this false Twin Flame?
I know it is not easy, it can be excruciatingly painful, humiliating, and very confusing. But you didn’t sign up for a life of easy and boring, at least not on the soul level!
Every fairytale has it’s goblins and evil queens. These energies get stuck to our Twin Flame mirrors and cause us to attract distortions of who we truly are.
The key to attracting your true Twin Flame vs a false Twin Flame or a Karmic Soulmate is that you must clear out all the Twin Flame Love Blocks that stop you from fully embracing yourself with the deepest Divine Love.
Divine Love is the glue that brings you and your Twin Flame so close to the mirror that you merge with your divine mirror.
You become one with your Twin Flame when you become one with your two inner halves.
To reunite with our Twin Flame, we are required to merge our polar halves of the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine. The Divine Feminine corresponds to emotions, emotional intelligence, ocean waves of energy that arrive with unpredictability, chaos, improvisation, and flow. The Divine Masculine corresponds to the mind, intellect, linear energy, predictability, organization, structure, and planning.
The Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine are truly reflections of each other and cannot exist without each other. They are meant to be separate as much as they are meant to merge. There truly is no separation, only the illusion of separation.
Twin Flames are not really halves of the same soul at all–they’re much more than this. They are two full expressions of love expressed in the mirror. They are Twin Flame mirrors of the whole soul. They reflect the Divine Union of the Divine Feminine and the Divine Masculine counterparts. They reflect each other (not necessarily expressed as a male and female, as Twins can certainly be same-sex) in their same and polar-opposite aspects.
Why did you attract your Twin Flame Counterfeit–that false Twin Flame who is keeping you up at night crying yourself to sleep? You did it for the lessons of love. Deep divine love never leaves you or abandoned you, but you have in some small or perhaps not-so-small way, abandoned yourself. The golden opportunity of pain from a false Twin Flame is to heal this spot, the area that has perhaps long been abandoned. By lovers, parents, ancestors, and by your soul in many lifetimes.
Maybe you didn’t read the signs of the false Twin Flame and so you hit a massive Dark Night of the Soul. Yet such experiences allow us to reclaim parts of ourselves. By looking in the Twin Flame mirror at yourself when you are in the heartache or pain, you are allowed to fully focus on you. On picking yourself up. On loving the inner child. While this time may be tender, you are actually not heartbroken: you are heart broken OPEN!
Without this crevice in your heart, the light couldn’t shine through.
It is the role of the false Twin Flame to bring up your greatest fears around Twin Flame Separation. By cracking open your heart, you feel the deep separation of the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine within your soul. You feel the deep separation of your Divine Self (I AM Self) and your human self. You feel this mirroring through many aspects of your life. It brings up the separation you feel from your community. The separation you felt as a child from certain family members. It brings up traumas and pains that may seem unrelated to the Twin Flame topic.
Truly, everything in our worlds relates to us, as we are the center of our own universe. You are the beautiful central axis of your Youniverse, despite what we are taught to believe. If you are not at the core of you, who is?
Unfortunately, so many people–women especially–are taught to deny themselves of a self. This has become a generational pattern that creates mental imbalances, mental illnesses, physical ailments, genetic diseases, and spiritual disconnects.
Without finding the self first, you will not find your Twin Flame.
We each have a self. We each need a self. We have been gifted this self from God/the Universe, and when we deny it and try to replace it with the love of another: a lover, a family member, a church member, a leader, a guru etc., we cannot experience the truest joy and divine bliss.
You are at the center of the atom. You are the neutron, with your arms being the Divine Feminine (electron) and the Divine masculine (proton). Your heart is that neutron, that neutral energy, and at the center of the heart lies the self. You cannot take the self away from the self, but you can deny it and forget it. But your self is alway there.
By falling in love with your self, you bring the gift to the world of an awakened one. You become the Beloved who can heal the planet starting at her own heart.
When I melted down the other night like a COMPLETE CRAZY WOMAN for the umpteenth time in the past few weeks, Jack just held me in his arms and said:
“I got you Babe.”
When he said this, I melted into his arms.
As you may know, my dad was in the hospital for 10 days, and death seemed nearby. Just when he seemed to start showing improvements, he ended up back in the hospital again with strange symptoms and severe pain.
That’s when I lost it!
Sometimes you can’t keep your shit together–even when you’re a sexy High-Healed Priestess–we’re not meant to! Thank God/dess I have a man who can handle ALL of me.
Girl, I want this for you. I want you to have your neo2 review Twin Flame who sticks by you, defends you from demons, and lays his life on the line to love you.
Believe me–it wasn’t always this way for me. I used to date men where I had to always have my sh*t together to keep them happy; not easy for a highly emotional, highly sensitive woman with soul.
I pleased and pleased and pleased them, tried to keep ’em, but in the end they’d leave me for another woman. It was frustrating. It wasn’t until I got older and wiser that I realized there were some hard patterns that I’d have to break in order to attract my Beloved.
I had to raise my standards like crazy in order to have what I wanted, and to start loving myself first.
I say STOP dating men who don’t hold you like a baby when you’re down!
Start searching for your Twin Flame who will be there with you to bear through the pain with you, or at least be there by your side with you.
Here are 5 signs you’re dating the wrong guy (or gal), and 5 signs that you’re with your Twin Flame.
5 Signs of True Twin Flame Love, in Sickness and in Health:
When the shit hits the fan, your man does whatever it takes to stay around and resolve the issue
He can handle your raw emotion without blaming you or himself for the ocean waves!
YOU can handle your own raw emotion without blaming you or himself for not handling your ocean waves
You are great communicators and problem solvers together
You are willing to do work, and invest in therapy/healing and the time that it takes to heal
5 Signs of a Soon to Be Twin Flame Runner:
When things get intense, you lash out at each other and become the victim of the scenario
You blame your pain on each other, and throw sticks and stones at each other
You are capable of maturely expressing your needs and emotions while not putting them on your partner
Relationships where you have to be “perfect” to get love, where you overgive or can’t reveal all sides of yourself
Conditional love where you can’t have melt downs, illness, or Dark Nights of the Soul together
Don’t toy with your heart, find your precious love who can fully nourish you through thick and thin. Be brave enough to test the relationship, even at the beginning a little bit. Let this person know your true colors. You can even cut to the chase and tell him, “I am a highly emotional sensitive woman–can you handle that?”
Still single? Interview your potential partners without shame. It will save both of you time! Go ahead and ask questions and express even the scared and vulnerable sides of yourself. The key here is to build a real relationship platform.
Seek a conscious partner who can communicate openly, share his fears, doubts, and ‘weak points’ openly, so that you can work together and grow the relationship!
No Twin Flame psychic can tell you the truth about your Twin Flame, unless she is reflecting the truth of your own Inner Knowing.
You hold the key to your Inner Truth.
As a Twin Flame Matchmaker, I have never given women readings like “He’s totally your Twin Flame! I see a future with you two.” I have seen potential outcomes but I always put it like “I can see this possibly happening, but proceed with caution.” When I was newer to the intuitive reading world, I made all the mistakes that other healers make at first: we take what is metaphysically showing up on our radar and say it is the absolute truth. But no one can know, only the person who is creating their reality.
Twin Flame practitioners must learn to empower their clients to help them find their own answers
I have learned to never disempower my clients, to instead focus on healing their past pain and getting them clear on their pleasure and creating a pathway to their dream lives. It’s not about being a future reader, as the future depends on how clear, blissful, and strong you are.
I have attracted many young women followers to me (probably because I have a magical little child) and I have to coach them to be empowered and to trust THEMSELVES as a guru.
Some of ‘the best’ psychics told me that I was not a fit for my Twin Flame Jack. They said he wasn’t my Twin Flame because he was too young or too this, too that; there was someone else they saw for me. Other psychics said he was the one, and there were many pre-encounter predictions including my own readings on myself. Needless to say, it was very confusing when we first met because I had been expecting massive love at first sight Twin Flame Recognition. But of course since my heart was so bruised and guarded because I’d been heartbroken by my Twin Flame Counterfeit Mark, I had a wall up and wasn’t ready to decide right away with anyone.
Twin Flame Recognition: How Do You Tell If Someone Is Your Twin Flame or Not?
In the end, I chose Jack as my truth. I witnessed him as my truest Twin Flame because he is my biggest expression of bliss, fun, play, joy, heart, future, and Twin Flame Love. And for so many more reasons that I will continue to share with you.
Though it took me time to decide if he was the real deal (and I suggest that you take your time as well, because the 3D world can play tricks on you and I have seen SO many clients say “I know he’s my Twin Flame” and it fizzles, and that was me once). After facing so many of our fears and questions together, I felt destiny was in the cards. I even felt it in my body (specifically in my yoni, which I will talk about later).
After nine months of dating Jack, I finally surrendered to our love. I let go and fell in love fully, trusting this man was not going to run or hurt me, and I allowed to build trust in our future
Who cared if several psychics said yes, and several were telling me no!
The answer to “Is he my Twin Flame?” is always within. When you start seeking answers that are outside yourself, you will create chaos and confusion.
A good Twin Flame Matchmaker can support you in neutrality. She’ll guide you to your YES, point out where you’re settling for less, help you discern True Love from love addiction, and help prevent you from running from love because you’re afraid.
I have done it all, and I am so grateful I have had some great mentors, therapists, coaches, and friends who have guided me along the way. But at the end, I made my choice and I am forever grateful for ME.
What Is a “Dark Night of the Soul?”
The worse thing that happens–an unfortunately this is very common–is that sometimes the person waits on their potential Twin Flame for years, only to find out it was not their true Twin Flame!
